This is another little ditty I wrote down one day. It is not entirely memorable or notable, just a freewrite I did to come up with some ideas for songs. I'm kinda busy so haven't had time to post and thought I might put something up. Looks longer than it is . . .
I keep looking back
for what you said I lacked
And I see you and me
and the space between
trying to fill a dream
and this is the place I’m at
trying to see the sky as blue
instead of black and
pull this weight off my back and
if love is my religion
does that mean that I am an atheist
or a realist
and do I have to go to war to fight
for my right
to keep them from pounding on my door
because I bought some Nyquil or Anbesol
or some other shit they say
I can get high from
and I’m standing there and I can barely breathe
and they say they want to look around
and I’m like: “this is America man” . . .
And they say: “exactly”.
And so I do a little pirouette and I say:
"How’s that for a look around?"
and they are not amused
And I’m surprised because
usually I think I’m a pretty funny girl
Or a woman,
I haven’t made up my mind yet
and I can see he’s got his hand on his trigger
and I’m like Man, I am not interested
and he says I can see
you’re not going down without a fight
and I’m like: “Baby . . . I can be your worst nightmare . . .
. . . or your best bad dream”.
And It’s like I’m an invincible wall of
and I’m shooting out one tiny hole of light
but it’s a blinding ray
and so I spend a lot of my time wondering
if I should be dimmer . . .
and if you had a pull chain on your neck
I would think that it was kinda strange
and yet . . . strangely convenient
On - Off
On - Off
Off - off - off.
And now all I have left is god and me
when he’s not too busy answering prayers and
being a poster-child for the latest conflict
in the name of his almighty saving grace
and everyone is just praying and praying
Should I take this job?
Should I buy this TV?
Should I drop this bomb?
And God is just yelling:
He’s a busy guy
Or gal, or woman
I don’t know, I haven’t decided yet
And I’m not sure I want to