I'm pretty sad this morning. If you remember from a few posts back I had an issue with one of my main glazes. I had mixed up a new batch, tested it and it was not good. So I made two new tests with my old yellow ochre, and my new yellow ochre and fired those with some other tests yesterday. Something is still not right. I could post some photos but this post is not so much about what is wrong visually but what is wrong with my heart. It's crushing. I've worked sooo hard and was finally turning the bend a little. I'm not giving up, but this is a real log on the path and now I've got to figure a way through or around. It started raining this morning and I was glad. I told Adam it was like a big warm blanket around my heart. Now it's no longer raining and I just want to smack the sun.
Serendipitously, I checked Emily Murphy's blog this morning and found her post on Ira Glass from This American Life. It's dead-on and I know these things already but I needed to hear it now and it really helped to turn my negative energy around a little. So I'm closing that gap but it's cracked open a bit. Maybe it is meant to be and the necessity to go down a different path could lead me to something really great that I never would have seen before. But for now, I am sad.